Waiting for a phone call.

I wonder how many hours I have waited for "the phone call". From a boy when I was growing up, from my sisters when they were close to labor, to a decision on a job, from our realtor when buying our house, and now waiting for the call thad Dora is ready to come home.

I don't know about you, but when I am "waiting" the rest of my world seems to slow or even shut down. I can't see past the call. Sometimes I lay awake thinking through every scenario, but honestly, I spend more time dealing with the disappointment than the joy. Why is it that its so hard for me to expect the best. To trust God....really trust him? I accept defeat before it even happens, then I am surprised when victory comes.

I really want to work on that. I have no reason to believe that at the end of the day, God hears me, knows me, loves me, and wants me to be happy. I just need to open up my hands and grasp tightly to this truth that I believe for everyone else. It is for me too. It is for you.

For this, I am truly grateful.

Happy Thanksgiving

Family

They are all over my house, reminders of family. Pictures, artwork, gifts, things left behind....everywhere.

I am always very mellow after a big family gathering. That is where I'm at right now.

We celebrated Thanksgiving this weekend. I took on too many projects the week before,

stayed up late finishing everything, made an itenerary, planned every detail....and nothing went as planned. VERY typical. Yet, there feels like so much didn't happen. Things that I look forward to...crave. Precious conversations, kids making crafts, endless coffee sipping, perfect family portrait, etc. Those things never made it past the itenerary. But, I think more than anything, I am out of touch with reality when it comes to these things. There were up to 7 kids under 10 in the house, 2 dogs, tired parents, too much food, and many varying burdens that everyone carried in the door.

In a way I miss the days of late night euchre tournaments, free-flowing schedule, and the much anticipated long nap. But, I think its time to embrace this season in my life. Chaos, loud volumes, messes, kids with endless energy, short and sweet adult conversations, and a non-existent schedule.

We did end up getting a picture....

...and made a lot of memories. Embracing this season one family event at a time. ;)